Isn't it funny that job and Job are spelled the same way? It is indicative, I believe. Our ancestors weren't fools when it came to the Word.
I have just overhauled an entire 40 page publication in three weeks. the graphic design, the editorial design and content, even the ads layout. Everything is different than it was just three weeks ago.
I'm feeling very good about it.
Finally! I got to use this weird bag of skills that I've honed over the past umpteen years. Brand marketing. Editing. Writing. Design sense. I got to manage several graphic designers and rein in the overwritten descriptions of little programs that are simply supposed to be fun. I got to put into perspective a whole organization and actually make it LOOK more substantial and together than it ever has before.
I've been working countless hours, many, many more than I've been paid for, and I think it worked for the publication. Whether it will ever pay off for me, I guess, just doesn't matter all that much. I had a blast making a difference. I got to help someone believe in herself! I got to do something I'm good at. It is enough for now.
Tomorrow is another day. So, I also started looking at want ads again. Is it so wrong to know that I am worthy of being paid a survivable, and even abundant wage? I am worth a lot. I have so many talents in my back pocket that have hardly ever been utilized.
Just a few months ago, I wrote that I thought that I couldn't handle a big job. I've just proven myself wrong. I have so much energy for work when I'm giving my all. I know that absolutely to support my kids and make a stable future for us, I'm willing and even eager to take on much more than I ever have before. I just want to really utilize my skills fiinally. I don't want to be ho-hum if I'm working. I want to be totally thrilled, as I was these past three weeks, for the opportunity to shine. Even if it is hard. I want to be compensated really well for what I do really well, too, and I don't think it is too much to ask for.
The secret of going from job to Job is really to simply do your best even when you have to argue with yourself and your own resentments and attitudes, even when you have to forgive others and their resentments and attitudes, and even when others don't fully trust themselves and you have to trust them regardless. You have to do your best, and that is good enough. How good can you be?